Each morning of the Daniel Fast I read the devotion from a book by Kristen Feola. Today’s devotion was about the breath of God from his spirit. One of my constant prayers is for God to breathe on me and all I do.
As I reflected on yesterday’s impatience with my acting career, I went to the often quoted Ephesians 3:20 about God doing more than you can imagine. I always thought that referred to material things. Then I looked at a cross reference verse and realized how off I was from the true meaning.
“these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit. The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. For who knows a person’s thoughts except their own spirit within them. In the same way, no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.”1 Corinthians 2:10-11 NIV
Yes, God can do above our imagination but only because we cannot possibly imagine what he’s going to do and why he’s going to do it! Its deeper than what we want.
I want to be a successful actress. (It’s still hard to say that publicly.) I know that God told me that I will be a successful actress. However, being a successful actress is about more than money, fame and that Academy Award. God has a whole other purpose in mind for my career. Something deeper. Something I cannot imagine.
So now, I must be willing to submit to his purpose though I do not know what it is. I must submit to the purpose more than the vision. I must submit out of faith. I must submit because I trust Him and his divine and incomprehensible wisdom.
On another note, I think God was waiting for me to get off work. I could feel him as I drove home. When I got to my apartment, his presence grew stronger. I tried to make myself a snack but could not focus. His presence was palpable. I had to stop. I find that it is best to acknowledge his presence with worship. As I spoke to him, he spoke to me. He went deeper.
Yes! This is what I was waiting for during this fast. I wish there was a way to feel like this all the time.