Menu- orange, oatmeal w/raisins, apples & almonds, quinoa salad, pear
I was playing Legos with a 3-year old this evening. I started building this abstract little throne. I chose the colors and size of blocks carefully. I stacked them with attention to dimension. When I finished, I was very proud of my little project.
Then I proceeded to build another project. This time I chose one from the pictures on the Lego bag. They were easy forms and used minimal blocks. But as I started building, I realized that some of the blocks I needed were part of the throne I had made. I searched through the block pile on the floor but had no luck. If I wanted to build this new project, I would have to take my last project apart to get the pieces I needed.
Here’s the crazy thing. I was not willing to do that.
For some reason, I could not bring myself to break down an insignificant, little Lego chair. I felt like I had worked so hard on it. I wanted to look at it for a little bit longer. I wanted to enjoy my own creation as long as I could. There was this very minuscule part of me that wanted this stupid throne to last forever.
Then my spirit began to have a moment. I realized this was how I approached many aspects of my life. I want to hold on to the last accomplishment as long as possible. I have a very difficult time letting go of it. Now, I realize I want to hold on because I’m afraid I will not accomplish anything else. There is a very minuscule part of me that is afraid that God will not do what he said he would do regarding my career.
“Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.”
Isaiah 43:19 KJV
God is like the parent with their children playing Legos. He is trying to get us to build something new but we keep whining about what we have in the moment.
“No, that’s mine!”
“I want it.”
“I’m using that.”
He is lovingly trying to get us to understand that he has something better. If we would just let go and trust him. Though we hear him, we cannot let go of the seen for the unseen. I hear Jesus repeating the question he asked the disciples when he calmed the storm.
“Where is your faith?”
Luke 8:25 KJV
It took a long time for me to begin trusting God the way he longs for us to trust him. I have come a long way as I have learned more about his character. Our relationship has gone through some changes but his love has remained the same. I can honestly say that I love him more than I ever thought I could. It is that love for him and his unfathomable love for me that enables me to trust him more than ever.