Menu- grapefruit, spinach apple salad, roasted root vegetables (so good)
Sunday
My pastor mentioned that we face “11 unknown months.” That sounded so scary to me. Then he responded with a verse.
“…Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”
Joshua 1:9
A few days ago (Day 13), I talked about my desire to hold on to past accomplishments and success because of a fear that I would not accomplish anything else again. In this moment I’m realizing how deep that fear is.
Monday
Today, I handled a work situation pretty well. My goal was to be sincerely respectful but honest. The result was positive.
Later, I was presented with another confrontation. I saw an email that angered me due to the sender’s attempt to take advantage of me and other residents. I made a decision to handle it tomorrow however a phone call prevented me from doing so. It was extremely difficult not to resort to the bad attitude I had become accustomed to in my youth. I wanted to be sarcastic. I wanted my disapproval to be heard through my tone. But dern it, God wouldn’t let me. My spirit wouldn’t let me. This fast is working.
The whole point of a fast is to deny your flesh, so your spirit becomes stronger. I am trying to fill up on the Word of God for these last 5-7 days. I want to learn more about faith and God’s glory. But, God also wants me to see myself clearly. He wants me to adjust some things about my character to better reflect the glory I’m trying to experience.